Yes, he got me a digital Canon! It's a Rebel xsi, and he got me a 300mm lens too! (The one I got is a little different from the picture, but you get the idea.) Now, I'm sure almost anyone would be very happy with such a present, it's even more special to me.
You see, I used to do photography, years ago when we lived in Prince Edward Island... and before we had kids. I had started my little business, did a few weddings, some family portraits and a few expositions to sell some scenery pictures. I was really getting into it and put together my portfolio. I had my manual camera (you know, the kind with actual film in it), a tripod, a flash, some filters... and he made sure that all my equipment would fit on this new camera. I just appreciate so much how thoughtful he was with this present! Since getting this new camera, I've been just thinking about taking pictures all the time... just like I used to years ago.
Of course, I took a lot of pictures during our last trip to the mountains, back in September. I brought both my manual and my little digital camera. Wanna know the truth? The pictures I took with my manual were not near as good as the one with the digital. Why? I think it's because when you start taking pictures with a digital, you start second guessing yourself if you use a manual again, since you can't see your pictures right away. The problem was that even if my pictures with the digital (the kind that fits in a small purse) were very vibrant and beautiful, the lens that comes on those things was just not as powerful as I'd wish for. You can only zoom in so much with a little digital camera.
Now I won't have those issues anymore. No more second guessing myself, no more missed pictures since I have a stronger lens.
Anyways, enough babbling about the camera. I think you get the idea. I got a new camera, I love my husband for being so thoughtful, I'm happy. :)
As if that wasn't enough to put a huge smile on my face, the very next day, I got to spend it by myself AND in the city to go Christmas shopping. Yes, it's post worthy, because last time I did that, was last year for Christmas shopping too. I never get more than a couple hours break from being a mom. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE being a mom, and LOVE my kids more than life itself. I think I've been doing a great job taking care of the kids while my husband is away at work all the time, but it seems I've been doing an even better job forgetting about myself since being a mom. I know it's no ones fault, but my own. So I got to finish all our Christmas shopping for the kids, relatives and friends... and even got a few things for my self!
Shocking, I know!
I got a pair of jeans, as I was wearing out the only pair I owned (I know, pathetic, right?) and then got a new pretty shirt to go with the jeans. Trust me, it looks a lot better on me than on the floor, lol. But I really wanted to show it.
I also got a purse because I had seen 4 times and wanted to buy it each times. And I thought, why not? I deserve to buy something purely because I want it.
Of course I wore the new outfit and used my new purse the very next day... and I got compliments on my looks! Wow, it had been such a long time since that had happened! I forgot how sometimes, all you need is to take better care of yourself to gain some confidence. And people notice... not just the outfit.
So how do I feel now? I am no longer the run down and exhausted mom I was a week ago. I now feel rested, calm, at peace. I am happy and people are noticing. My kids are probably noticing too, because we are having a lot more good days. Maybe because I am relaxed enough to deal with what they can "throw" at me during the day. I feel ready to set new goals (and act on them) and feel excited about the little things in life again. There is a lot more smiling and laughing happening in this home right now. I feel like I found a long lost part of myself. I feel like a person again, not just a mom.
Note to self: I need to do this more often than once a year!
I hope you are all enjoying your weekend